Well, so much for my intentions. By years end I had only tried one recipe. It wasn't that it was difficult, I just don't have a lot of time for all the things I love to do.
So, here in December again, I went into another characteristic flurry. I intended to go for three recipes all together, but with the coconut cake added in, it wasn't really possible in one day.
|Ciambelle with anise seeds|
|These are crunchy, meant to be enjoyed with sparkling wine, but I like them with coffee too.|
|Pine nut cookies. These went too fast to photo the finished product!|
Crochet work is like this too, or writing--though then it's in the imaginative, or perhaps metaphysical world. But all of these are essentially creative spheres where the mind is dually occupied--on one side by recipes or patterns or the concrete rules of punctuation and grammar--but then also on the larger, deeper, more abstract side which is fulfilling in the way that you can find yourself moving on autopilot, so that the "rules" are part of you so much so that the moment you are living in is art itself.
I think it was George Balanchine who said "Discipline makes you free," which I used to puzzle over as a younger person. Though once I had experienced it, practiced to the point at which I was dancing without thinking steps but was within the music, I knew what it was to soar, to be free, to be experiencing art.
Once I had a student who said if he had three wishes one would be not to need to sleep. I would wish this too. Think of the things one could accomplish! Not all the have to's of life, but the want to's! So many things I'd like to try, to perfect, to have time to find the sweet spot, to lose myself in that other realm.